Three years ago, if anyone had asked me would I return to South Carolina to live after moving away, my answer would've been a blunt, "Hell to the no!" Maybe it's because I was born and raised in SC and it was all I really knew. Even as a kid I was fully aware that there was so much more out there and if I truly desired a career in entertainment I'd someday have to leave to make it all a reality.
So, I tried to move out on my own a few years ago to California, home of the stars and where dreams come true. I had the time of my life. I made new friends, partied, explored LA, partied, went out on auditions, and partied some more. But to my dismay, I ended up right back in South Carolina the following year.
Fast forward to August of last year. With a solid plan and my partying mindset fading away, I relocated to Cali once again. I really did believe nothing could stop me. I’d been there before and knew exactly what to expect.
The first few months passed by pretty smoothly. I got adjusted to my job and continued to have a plan for every step of the way. But a few months ago, things began to change in ways I never expected. There were days I felt so alone. I'd made friends at work and bonded really well with my roommates, but nothing compared to the connections I'd made back home. I didn't miss South Carolina one bit, but missed my family dearly and felt in need of a support system. Along with that, I struggled to figure out a concrete new living situation. And after I tried and tried, I realized that things just didn't feel "right"...not at all like they had before. I wasn't sure if I had planned things out too much or what. So I made the decision to relocate back home.
With age comes wisdom and I'm wise enough to know that sometimes when you think you have all the answers and everything figured out to a T, God can step right in with a different plan. As of right now I don't have all the answers. However, I do know what I want for my life and believe I've most definitely been blessed with the ability to make it all happen. It's all just a matter of when and how.
Who knows where I'll be six months to a year from now. Maybe Atlanta. Maybe Florida. Maybe I'll just continue to travel until I find my ideal place. Or hell, maybe my ass will still be right here in South Carolina. I've reached a point in life where I believe in the impossible and know anything can happen when it's least expected. I'm open to all possibilities.
So stay tuned...There's so much more to come.
As I sit here reflecting over my life and everything I’ve been through, the good and the bad, I realize how blessed I truly am. I’m in such a great place right now and I’ve honestly never been so happy. It’s hard to believe that just last year I was in such a depressed state of mind. I was upset that I had to leave California and return home to SC. I’d sleep all day, couldn’t hold a job, and had absolutely no motivation to write or record music. I’d given up on myself and my purpose in life. I figured there was no point in even dreaming anymore.
So what changed? I finally became fed up with the idea of being unhappy. I took a second to really ponder on what makes me happy and where I really need to be in life. The answer was quite simple and I was well aware that nothing I wanted would simply come to me if I continued to sit on my ass. I came to the conclusion that I’d never be completely happy holding down any job that doesn’t include acting, music or writing. And what’s the fun in life if you can’t fulfill your dreams and aspirations?
I sat down and created some goals for myself. Some of them included finding a job, saving as much money as I could and trusting God would help me. These goals later became I contract I drafted for myself. I set a timeframe for moving back to Cali, signed it, dated it and promised myself I’d do my absolute best to achieve these goals. I taped this contract up on my wall so I’d see it every day and never lose focus or sight of what I really wanted.
And here I am almost a year later, seeing everything become reality. I’ll be relocating to California next month and I’ve realized moving back home for a while wasn’t a step back. It was necessary for me to really get my head together. While back home I’ve also interned with a film company, worked on film sets and even learned the basics to writing a movie script. I feel like everything is happening when it’s supposed to and I’m on a great track to pushing my career forward.
Was it easy? Hell no! But it was possible…with determination and faith that God would get me where I need to be. If I don’t succeed it out in the world alone, at least I can say I tried and I won’t have regrets years from now because I’ll know I’ve done everything I could to make things happen.
If I can do all this within a year’s time, so can you! With complete focus and faith, we can do anything we set our minds to. Life’s entirely too short for doubt and procrastination. Figure out what it is you want out of life and get up and go after it! You’ll be surprised at how things begin to work out in your favor when you believe in you.